U made me sad

do u know the feeling of being hurt by someone you trusted so much?! well, it's very hard to be sad esp when u can't cry. walang kwenta ung guy e. i felt sad to have been realized and discovered how bad that person was. sayang, he should've told me truth the nice way. "he owes me an apology". he completely knew i deserve someone better and for that he should feel how lesser person he had been in leaving me and breaking my heart.

My Clark Kent!

i found "clark kent"! waaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh

Nice Song

You're beautiful by James Blunt

My life is brilliant. My life is brilliant. My love is pure. I saw an angel. Of that I'm sure. She smiled at me on the subway. She was with another man. But I won't lose no sleep on that, 'Cause I've got a plan. You're beautiful. You're beautiful. You're beautiful, it's true. I saw your face in a crowded place, And I don't know what to do, 'Cause I'll never be with you. Yeah, she caught my eye, As we walked on by. She could see from my face that I was, Flying high, [ - video/radio edited version] Fucking high, [ - CD version] And I don't think that I'll see her again, But we shared a moment that will last till the end. You're beautiful. You're beautiful. You're beautiful, it's true. I saw your face in a crowded place, And I don't know what to do, 'Cause I'll never be with you. You're beautiful. You're beautiful. You're beautiful, it's true. There must be an angel with a smile on her face, When she thought up that I should be with you. But it's time to face the truth, I will never be with you

Behind These Hazel Eyes - Kelly Clarkson

Seems like just yesterday You were a part of me I used to stand so tall I used to be so strong Your arms around me tight Everything, it felt so right Unbreakable, like nothing could go wrong Now I can't breathe No, I can't sleep I'm barely hanging on here i am, once again I'm torn into pieces can't deny it, can't pretend Just thought you were the one broken up, deep inside But you won't get to see the tears I cry Behind these hazel eyes I told you everything Opened up and let you in You made me feel alright For once in my life Now all that's left of me Is what I pretend to be So together, but so broken up inside Cause I can't breathe No, I can't sleep I'm barely hangin' on Here I am, once again I'm torn into pieces Can't deny it, can't pretend Just thought you were the one Broken up, deep inside But you won't get to see the tears I cry Behind these hazel eyes Swallow me then spit me out For hating you, I blame myself Seeing you it kills me now No, I don't cry on the outside Anymore...(anymore) Here I am, once again I'm torn into pieces Can't deny it, can't pretend Just thought you were the one Broken up, deep inside But you won't get to see the tears I cry Behind these hazel eyes Here I am, once again I'm torn into pieces Can't deny it, can't pretend Just thought you were the one Broken up, deep inside But you won't get to see the tears I cry Behind these hazel eyes

Keeping myself Inspired ;)

"It's hard to go on loving knowing that the one you love can never be yours no matter how hard you try... & how much you do. You just have to accept the one you "truly love" is not meant for you." So I guess hanggang inspiration na lang siya, huhuhu... ;( He'd been always "the man of my dreams". Everytime I'm depressed, my feelings for him would always go back & be inspired again. Siya yung "figure" I always use to forget my ex-boyfriends.

Sobrang effective! I like him so much, huhuhu. Poor me! He's my TJ.... ahehe, korni ba?! Secret lang po itoh. Anyway, I am not hoping for anything in return. I still feel good loving him even if walang patutunguhan.

FRIEND OF MINE ;(

I've known you for so long - You are a friend of mine - But is this all we'd ever be - I've loved you ever since - You are a friend of mine - and babe is this all we ever could be - You tell me things I'll never know - I'll show you love you've never shown - and then again where you go - I'm always at your side - You tell me 'bout the love you've had - I listen very eagerly - But deep inside you'll never see - This feeling of emptinessthat makes me feel sad - But then again I'm glad - I've known you all my life - You are a friend of mine - I know this is how it's gonna be - I've loved you then and I love you still - You're a friend of mine - Now I know friendsa - re all we ever could be

Songs

Akap by Imago

Nagtatanong - bakit mahirap -sumabay sa agos -ng iyong mundoNagtataka- Simple lang naman sana- Ang buhay- Kung ika'y matinoSabihin sa akin lahat ng lihim mo -Iingatan ko -Ibaling sa akin ang problema mokakayanin ko - Pikit mata- kong iaalay - ang buwan at araw -pati pa sapatos kong suotNagtatanong - simple lang naman sana - ang buhay - kung ika'y lumayo - Sasamahan ka sa tamis - Sasamahan ka sa dilim - Sasamahan ka hanggang langit - Sasamahan ka sa tamis - Sasamahan ka sa pait - Sasamahan ka sa dilim - Sasamahan ka hanggang langit - Sasamahan ka

I'll Never get Over YOu by MYMP

I hear you're taking the town again - Having a good time with all your good time friends - I don't think that you think of me - You're on your own now, and I'm alone and free - I know that I - oughta get on with my life - But a life lived without you could never be right - And as long as the stars shine down from the heavens - Long as the rivers run to the sea - I'll never get over you - Getting over me - I try to smile so the hurt won't show - Tell everybody I was glad to see you go - But the tears just won't go away - Loneliness found me, looks like it's here to stay - I know that I oughta find someone new - But all I find is myself always thinking of you - No matter what I do - It's like a lifetime to live through - I can't go on like this - I need your touch - You're the only one I've ever loved - And as long as the stars shine down from the heavens - Long as the rivers run to the sea - I'll never get over you - Getting over me - I'll never get over you - Getting over... - Never get over you getting over... - I'll never get over you - Getting over me

Everything gets better ;)

One often wonders why women find it difficult to leave a relationship that is emotionally or sometimes even physically damaging to them. As for me, I rely solely on the relationship to make me feel good. I had the misconception that the relationship is giving me 'security' & 'self-worth'. I thought that 'relationship' is where I can gain confidence and feel good--- but in fact, I feel bad. It is always the great cause of my discomfort, stress & unhappiness.

It’s been a while… I now feel fine. I always believed though, that it will just be hard at the start but it will always get better. Ayt?! Agree?! Yes, for sure. I realized that I can’t afford to lose myself. I have a kid. I will always hang on to my values… I know myself. I know what I want, what I need & what I’ve always believed in. Time is gold. We should make the most out of it…

I've learned that approaching a relationship with too much expectations is not only futile but achieves the opposite effect. “It increases his defensiveness, rigidity, distrust and resistance. The single most important principle to deal with the person according to how he actually is, instead of how you are or how you wish he would or think he should be...” You can wait for improvement and if there's none, that's the time you have to assume there's something wrong going on. We grew up in different worlds. We have learned to accommodate different sets of expectations We always have a choice. We should tolerate it. Let go if we feel we have to. The wisest move is the change that comes from yourself.

Let go. I know I should still give my self a chance to be happy even though it means letting go of something “seemingly good”. Actually, it’s something “I thought/akala” good, but then… again… wrong choice. Wahaha!

I've already admitted to myself that it is a bad relationship & accepted the situation. I don't feel like “sayang”. I believe that it’s better to have those times or years wasted than to have my entire life being wasted with someone who doesn’t deserve me…”. "Don't be scared to find anyone else who will love you because you will when the time is right...”.

I want to rest, wahahaha! Tama na muna! When I saw “Ken” (My former crush, na crush ko ulet! Wahahaha!), I realized that there's so many good things that life is yet to offer me. I know I deserve only the best. I still have my life I should thank for. My happiness doesn't depend on somebody. It's my choice... and it will always will.

See I dont, know why, I liked you so much I gave you all of my trust I told you, I loved you Now it's all down the drain, You put me through pain I wanna let you know how i feel Fuck what I said It don't mean shit now Fuck the presents Might as well throw them out, Fuck all those kisses They didnt mean jack ' Fuck you ,you I dont want you back! ~I heard the story, Ya played me, ,Ya askin for me back, Ya just another hack, Look elsewhere cuz ya done with me, Ya questioned did I care, You could ask anyone, I even said ya were my great one, Now its, all over, But I do admit I'm sad, It hurts real bad, I can't sweat that cause i loved a loser Fuck what I said, It dont mean shit now, Fuck the presents, Might as well throw them out, Fuck all the kisses They didnt mean jack ' Fuck you, you loser I dont want you back !

(kanta lang to ha...)

Life after losing love.

The sad fact is I fell in love again with the wrong person... a very wrong choice. It is true the 'people are never what we think they are'. I trusted him with my whole heart & the belief that he's a good person. I have accepted the fact that it's over between us but I can't accept the truth that the reason behind this is he loves someone else. His last letter made it even worst. It seems like I've been fooled intentionally. I never thought that I've been this stupid & desperate not to realize he's been hiding something from me. He took advantage of my me knowing I'm still mending from a bitter past. He took advantage of me being a mother in my young age. He took advantage of my weakness points.

I've been too nice to him. Dumating pa yung time when I am already taking for granted my kid for him. He's a very great actor. A talented loser, I guess, hehe. Compare to my son's dad, he's worst. He's even worst because he really intended to destroy my life because of his desperation. How can this happen to me?! Did you ever experience the feeling of total sadness... you can't cry... you can't let it out... which makes you more depressed... ?

I loved him... Yun ung nkka-inis. I gave myself too soon...

I should have LISTENED to the people around me. I don't want to regret though. He helped me to forget my ex in a way. I am just totally out of myself now... I still can't believe he would HURT me this much. He told me the truth the most arrogant way. It's all “akala”. I really thought he's telling the truth... I thought he's a good man. I thought he loves me........ And now, I'm forgetting him the hard way. I can't cry... I feel so burned out... so depressed. I hate myself for being so stupid... and rushing things. If only I've been stronger, controlled my emotions and been extra careful I won't experience this. GOD please help me........ please.

A Summary of An OLd Essay

Being a Single Parent.

Being a single parent nowadays, is no longer an aberrant lifestyle. Struggle within struggle as it may seem, a single parent has been estranged with numerous issues that defy his/ her present and future life. It is not only the issue of being the sole financier but the issue of being an assertive voyager in the midst of unknown rhythm of life.

It is better off single than to be married to an irresponsible man, believing that one can raise perfectly healthy children without father.

I wanted to be a devoted mom to my child by all means.

With simple smile from him, my sorrow turned to joy as if bringing me in a great height of happiness. "Masarap magkaron ng baby na matatawag mong sa'yo". You'll be addicted with his warm sweet smiles.

Time really heals the wounds of the past as forgiveness conquers a flinty heart.
For me, parenting has been something like smogasboard, providing many choices with a variety of outcomes, some predictable, most unpredictable.

I know through this experience what I want to do in my life and who I want to be part of it. I know my child is happy and nothing could make me happier.

I learned that if you can't love yourself, you can't love anyone else, especially a child.

Right now, I am having a hard time to find someone who could respect and accept what and who I am.

"Gusto ko yung seryosong tatanggap sakin kung ano at sino ako, hindi lang puro sex. Kung hindi niya mamahalin ung anak ko, hindi ko rin siya kailangan. Dapat tingnan niya ako bilang tao at bilang ako."

Reality really bites. We must remember that for every mistake we committed there's a corresponding lesson. That lesson would leave a significant mark in our hearts to live, renew and continue the voyage; after all, life has so many things to offer! Keep going. Be strong.

Not even worth a *tear*

TRUE LOVE defies distance & differences... If you're man enough knowing you're not yet ready for commitment, then you should've not let someone fall for you and enter a relationship in the first place. Never ever reason out stupid things just to wash your hands. No matter what you say you're just...

...A man who can not prove anything + who's afraid of commitment + dishonest/ storyteller/ a great actor = or simply, a talented loser guy who got no 'balls'.

Galit eh noh?! Hehe, Shame on him.
He just simply made me stronger ;)
"Thank you now!" ;P

THIS MISERY ENDS HERE... let us always remember that we should reserve our *tears* and the best part of us for someone "worth-it".

Goodbye is the "sweetest" word you can only say anyways...
Shame on you.
You messed up with the wrong girl...

Sorry...

I am here again... Actually, I didn't plan to take endshift... BUT... hehe, grabe kung kelan ako "masipag" almost everybody took VTO naman~!!! Bwahehehehe....huhuhuhu... Somebody's mad @ me ;( Well, no comment. Happy Valentines Day nlng sayo (whoever you are...).

Confused & Hurt. (Repost)

“There's no easy way to break somebody's heart...” It's true especially if you love that person. If you really someone then you can't just leave that person behind. You should be considerate enough to his/her feelings. It's hard to decide to leave somebody you love because he's not worth enough for you. It's hard to accept the fact that you're not meant to each other after all those memories shared. Sometimes, I can't help but to believe that “Love is the biggest lie.”. It's really not only for those broken hearts, you can sometimes consider how unfortunate you are with love even by having someone in your life. And for that, I guess I have to move on again, learn, forgive & hope... Hope for another good thing to come into my life, but this time, in the right time.

I believe I only deserve the best.

Personality Test (Repost)

http://web.tickle.com/color/

Ishi, your color is red!

"Your color is red, the color of racy sportscars, blushing cheeks, and luscious roses. Red symbolizes passion, romance, and love. So, since you're ruled by red, you probably trust your feelings more than your brain and tend to act spontaneously. If you see something you want, you go for it without thinking twice — impulsive is your middle name. You don't wait around for people to make decisions, either; you dive right in. Quite the romantic, you pay close attention to your emotions. In fact, if your heart isn't in what you're doing, you won't be satisfied. Of course, even when you do pour all your energy into the projects you tackle, your impetuous nature means your passions can shift as frequently as the wind. That's why some reds have trouble with commitment. Our advice? Next time you're feeling fickle, think before you act, if possible. You might be surprised at the results. Overall, though, it's great to be red. No one lives life more completely than you do."

True, ryt?!

Losing Love (Part II- Repost)

…and having it back.

“In life, things can not always be good but it can not always be bad at the same time... Love can really hurt you for a while.” It’s true that we can not always get the things we wanted. It is so wrong to expect too much from other people if we knew that even us can not do the things we demand them to do. I was wrong to demand consistency. I just soon realized that it doesn’t really matter if the person isn’t consistent. There is no permanent in this world… people change, everything change. As long as there is an ‘improvement’, there’s a big chance a relationship will work. Love grows. You can not learn to love someone overnight. I always believed love is a product of time. I mean, TRUE LOVE is a product of time. We can love a person in an instant in reasons we, ourselves, can not explain. I guess having been hurt a lot of times has now given me the advantage to see what true love really is. TRUE LOVE is worth a ‘sacrifice’. If someone really loves you then he/she will always makes you feel important in his/her life.
This morning, I had the chance to share a talk once again to one of my good friends at info. I was really flattered by his comments for me. He would always say “gumanda ako”. He assumes that it’s maybe because I’m “inlove” daw. Hahaha. That man is really worth conversing with. Maybe I enjoyed the talks because we rarely see each other na. Before, we get to talk about lot of things. Kahit ano. Usually about love—life. We mentioned something about “God giving you a better one”. It’s about how God is so good to be unkind to people. I was asking, “If it is true that the reason why God takes something away from you is to give you someone better, then meaning… may mas better pa sa present? The present which I consider so much better na…” I then realize how bait GOD is to me.I got to see the bright side of losing someone you LOVE… getting hurt…hmm....hayyy….

“I pray for those people who died sa stampede happened this morning @ ultra (wowowie). It’s true that it’s really a wake up call for everybody. I was really saddened about that news. I can not imagine losing a member of my family in that way.... Because of so much poverty & desperation… tsk tsk…. How sad….. ;(“

Losing Love ;) (Repost)

Senti ba itoh?! Losing love? What can you say about it?! Sad thing.

Actually it’s not losing love after all… you can not lose something you never had. Maybe all I need is to let go. I mean, I don’t want to force someone to stay if he doesn’t want to stay anymore. “I hope he can soon have the things we can not find.” I would hate to think it is a ‘loss’. Maybe all I need to do is just believe that maybe I deserve better that’s why he is being taken away from me. All those petty arguments & sweet moments… I know I will cherish those. I will never forget him. “Sayang”, he’s really worth-it of everything. It’s like… we’re meant to be together but just in just a short span of time. God has HIS reasons & I now fully understand those. It helped me a lot to realize things…

We can not get all the things we want…

Even if I would love him to stay, I also have no choice. If someone really loves you then he/she will fight for you & will find a way to keep you… right? That’s why I guess… it’s not ‘true love’ after all. I’ll just think that way. It’s hard to face the fact that he really made me loved him… & now he is leaving… it’s like he’s making me hate him naman.

Ishi girl… LEARN!

Dangerously In Love-Beyonce (Repost)

Dangerously In Love - Beyonce
I love you.~Baby I love you~You are my life~My happiest moments weren't complete~If you weren't by my side~You're my relation~In connection to the sun~With you next to me~There's no darkness I can't overcome~You are my raindrop~I am the sea~With you and God, who's my sunlight~I bloom and grow so beautifully~Baby, I'm so proud~So proud to be your girl~You make the confusion~Go all away~From this cold and messed up world.~I am in love with you~You set me free~I can't do this thing~Called life without you here with me~Cause I'm Dangerously In Love with you~I'll never leave~Just keep lovin' me~The way I love you loving me.~And I know you love me~Love me for who I am~Cause years before I became who I am~Baby you were my man~I know it ain't easy~Easy loving me~I appreciate the love and dedication~From you to me~Later on in my destiny~I see myself having your child~I see myself being your wife~And I see my whole future in your eyes~Thought of all my love for you~sometimes make me wanna cry~Realize all my blessings~I'm grateful~To have you by my side.~Every time I see your face ~My heart smiles~Every time it feels so good~It hurts sometimes~Created in this world~To love and to hold~To feel~To breathe~To love you.~Dangerously in love~Can't do this thing~I love you , I love you, I love you~I'll never leaveJust keep on loving me~I'm in love with you~I can not do~I cannot do anything without you in my life~Holding me, kissing me, loving me~DangerouslyI love youDangerously in love.

Finding Mr. Perfect!

People change no matter how hard they try not to. As you grow older, you mature & with each new level of maturity comes different ideas, different needs & wants. The person who was perfect with you @ 20 could be the person you hate when you're 35. FIND SOMEONE WHO WILL GROW WITH YOU, CHANGE WITH YOU, LAUGH WITH YOU & CRY WITH YOU. A PERSON WHO FILLS IN WHERE YOU LACK, A PERSON WHOM YOU CAN FILL IN FOR WHEN THEY ARE LACKING. But what about the PERFECT PERSON? He doesn't exist. The are no perfect people, only people who are perfect for each other... "

"You don't marry someone you can live with. You marry someone you cannot live without..."
Eto sabi friend ko skn (Judit Trudis)--->

"Marry someone who loves you more than anything else in the world and will always feel the same even if you dnt love him that much..."
Tagos ba?!! Bigat noh! Hmm...