Life after losing love.

The sad fact is I fell in love again with the wrong person... a very wrong choice. It is true the 'people are never what we think they are'. I trusted him with my whole heart & the belief that he's a good person. I have accepted the fact that it's over between us but I can't accept the truth that the reason behind this is he loves someone else. His last letter made it even worst. It seems like I've been fooled intentionally. I never thought that I've been this stupid & desperate not to realize he's been hiding something from me. He took advantage of my me knowing I'm still mending from a bitter past. He took advantage of me being a mother in my young age. He took advantage of my weakness points.

I've been too nice to him. Dumating pa yung time when I am already taking for granted my kid for him. He's a very great actor. A talented loser, I guess, hehe. Compare to my son's dad, he's worst. He's even worst because he really intended to destroy my life because of his desperation. How can this happen to me?! Did you ever experience the feeling of total sadness... you can't cry... you can't let it out... which makes you more depressed... ?

I loved him... Yun ung nkka-inis. I gave myself too soon...

I should have LISTENED to the people around me. I don't want to regret though. He helped me to forget my ex in a way. I am just totally out of myself now... I still can't believe he would HURT me this much. He told me the truth the most arrogant way. It's all “akala”. I really thought he's telling the truth... I thought he's a good man. I thought he loves me........ And now, I'm forgetting him the hard way. I can't cry... I feel so burned out... so depressed. I hate myself for being so stupid... and rushing things. If only I've been stronger, controlled my emotions and been extra careful I won't experience this. GOD please help me........ please.